If I could paint how I feel

(31) send 'em!

2007-02-02T23:31:35Z

(30)

2007-01-30T23:04:29Z

things are going well... which is a little scary. you know what i mean?

(29) fuck you too APL

2007-01-27T03:20:09Z

HAHAHAHHAHAHAHA i got a letter from APL. (Austin Public Library) they basically threatened to turn me over to a collection agency for... get this....

$3.50

what the hell??!!? it'll cost them more to file the fucking charges than if they'd just wait til i came in and asked me about it. what the hell is wrong with them?

i also need to return Good Omens... ASAP.

anyway, i have 5 free downloads left, and i don't know what the hell to get. i got Brand New's Deja Entendu and Bad Religion's Generator. and Rise Above (the song) by Black Flag. wth else should i get?

(28)

2007-01-14T22:17:57Z

i was laid off on friday. lovely. i know i haven't updated in a long time, gonna try to fix that... i'll have ample time, probably.

(27)

2006-11-19T19:01:12Z

well holy hell it's been a long time. i've got a job now, working 40+ hours a week. and probably 50+ after thanksgiving. (oi)

not much is really going on. life is good. i think i'm going to buy myself an 80G black video ipod for christmas. :D if i can pay my bills and get something nice for myself, too, why the hell not?

anyway. i'll try to update this thing more frequently.

(26)

2006-10-19T23:28:59Z

holy crap a lot had happened. i got a JOB! i go for orientation on the 27th, and i actually start on the 30th. BUT! they called me today and wanted to know if i could go in Friday (tomorrow), Monday, and Tuesday to do some filing for "only $10 an hour". um, hell YEAH. so i go in from 8 to 5. :D it's been al ong search, and it finally paid off. with a pretty good job, too. i work through Volt for Apple. :)

(25)

2006-09-12T15:48:19Z

hey, i know. no posts in a long time. i've been busy looking for job. IT SUCKS. i'm at the library & running out of time, so more later! tomorrow??

(23)

2006-08-23T18:46:14Z

my comp is fuckin up AGAIN. it might be awhile before i'm back.

(22) i'm happy, oh so happy

2006-08-18T03:09:16Z

ADFHKJETHYUAHJ$&%IDKLAJ$#^ i have rise against icons. so easy to make me happy. :)

(21)SURROUNDED BY HERBIVORES

2006-08-17T22:13:16Z

http://www.last.fm/user/truthloveindie/journal/&action=display&entryid=186895

i'm probably going to end up being a hypocrite at some point in the future... but WHAT THE FUCK. i like the way animals taste.... just not the way they're slaughtered. >.<

damn. vegetarianism it catching on. soon, it'll be up to the animals to eat the animals. what will we do when the deer and chickens take over?!?!?!?!

no offense to vegans/vegetarians/herbivores/tree huggers.... i can see where you're coming from and i respect it. i just don't understand much of it, that's all.

(20)

2006-08-16T22:59:23Z

so. how 'bout this new layout?

(18)guess WHAT?!?!?!

2006-08-12T20:44:11Z

I HAVE INTERNET AT HOME NOW!!! YEAH! i love time warner. heh heh heh... and AWESOME CABLE.

SO happy. :)

(17)YEAH!

2006-08-09T16:20:56Z

I GOT A CELL PHONE! my first ever. :) it's with cingular, and the service is pretty good. i'm on the family plan with my mom & grandma (nerdy!), but that's cool. i call my mom more that anyone, so whatever. i basically have 230 "anytime" minutes. AND my phone is one of those new motorola slvrs!! it's AWESOME. i'm going to download music into my iTunes on my PHONE!! oh yeah.

anyway, all moved in now. and we have ants. which sucks, but i'm kinda used to it. my mom's house has ants pretty bad, too. so yeah. i took my first (well, second, but i'm not counting that one) bus ride today. :) yay me!! i feel so grown up, lol.

so uh... more later.

(16)

2006-08-04T04:30:29Z

rise gainst-the sufferer and the witness
rise against-revolutions per minute
eminem-the eminem show
punk goes acoustic
anti flag-for blood and empire
dashboard confessional-a mark, a mission, a brand, a scar
beastie boys-ill communication
alkaline trio-good mourning
avenged sevenfold-city of evil
george carlin- life is worth losing

my new cds. hell yeah. :)

PLUS! i got my ACL tickets!!! WOOOOOO!

(15)can i get a HELL YEAH?!

2006-08-04T03:52:06Z

WOO!!@ i am officially moved in to my new place. in austin. UNH. now all i need is a damn job. but that's ok. if push comes to shove, i'll get a job at the evil empire of wal-mart until i can find something less soul-draining. (i HATE walmart.) now i need to change my ID too. not only am i now OVER 21, i have a new address.

OH. MY. GODS. rise against is playing stubb's at the end of october! with thursady. i think i'm going to go. i won't excatly fit in with the punk crowd, but that's cool. i'll sit in a corner and enjoy the music. :) maybe i could get someone to go with me. :):) heh.

so, yeah. more later. importing my 10 new cds (not all at once mind you) onto my ma's iTunes. more at some later date.

OH! i might be getting a cell phone tomorrow! :D movin' on UP, i tell ya'!

(13) my favorite number. :)

2006-07-11T02:38:00Z

(Click here to post your own answers for this meme.)

✓ I miss somebody right now.	✓ I don't watch much TV these days. (but i would if my shows were on. :( THEY TOOK ALIAS AWAY THOSE BASTARDS!)	✓ I own lots of books.
✓ I wear glasses or contact lenses.	✓ I love to play video games.	✓ I've tried marijuana.
✓ I've watched porn movies.	✓ I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.	✓ I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
✓ I curse sometimes.	✓ I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.	✓ I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.

* * * * *

× I have broken someone's bones.	✓ I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.	× I hate the rain.
✓ I'm paranoid at times.	✓ I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.	✓ I need/want money right now.
✓ I love sushi.	✓ I talk really, really fast. (only around my mom and my aunt)	× I have fresh breath in the morning.
× I have long hair.	× I have lost money in Las Vegas.	✓ I have at least one sibling.
× I was born in a country outside of the U.S.	× I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.	✓ I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
× I like the way that I look.	✓ I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months.	✓ I am usually pessimistic.
✓ I have a lot of mood swings. (PMS, hello.)	× I think prostitution should be legalized.	× I slept with a roommate.
× I have a hidden talent.	× I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.	× I have a lot of friends.
× I have pecked someone of the same sex.	× I enjoy talking on the phone.	× I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
✓ I love to shop and/or window shop.	× I'm obsessed with my Xanga or Livejournal.	× I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
× I have a mobile phone.	× I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.	✓ I've rejected someone before.
✓ I currently like/love someone.	✓ I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.	× I want to have children in the future.
✓ I have changed a diaper before.	× I've called the cops on a friend before.	✓ I'm not allergic to anything.
✓ I have a lot to learn.	✓ I am shy around the opposite sex.	× I'm online 24/7, even as an away message.
× I have at least 5 away messages saved.	✓ I have tried alcohol or drugs before.	× I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
× I own the "South Park" movie.	× I have avoided assignments at work/school to be on Xanga or Livejournal.	✓ I enjoy some country music.
× I would die for my best friends.	× I'm obsessive, and often a perfectionist.	× I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
✓ I think Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.	× I have dated a close friend's ex.	✓ I am happy at this moment.
✓ I'm obsessed with guys.	× Democrat.	× Republican.
✓ I don't even know what I am.	✓ I am punk rockish.	✓ I go for older guys/girls, not younger.
× I study for tests most of the time.	× I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.	× I can work on a car.
× I love my job(s).	✓ I am comfortable with who I am right now.	× I have more than just my ears pierced.
✓ I walk barefoot wherever I can.	× I have jumped off a bridge.	✓ I love sea turtles.
× I spend ridiculous amounts of money on makeup.	✓ I plan on achieving a major goal/dream. (that's why it's a GOAL.)	× I am proficient on a musical instrument.
× I hate office jobs.	× I went to college out of state.	× I am adopted.
✓ I am a pyro. (well, i still like fire, and i LOVED fire when i was a kid.)	✓ I have thrown up from crying too much.	✓ I have been intentionally hurt by people that I loved.
✓ I fall for the worst people.	× I adore bright colours.	× I usually like covers better than originals.
✓ I hate chain theme restaurants like Applebees and TGIFridays.	✓ I can pick up things with my toes.	× I can't whistle.
✓ I have ridden/owned a horse.	✓ I still have every journal I've ever written in.	× I talk in my sleep.
✓ I've often thought that I was born in the wrong century.	✓ I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.	✓ I wear a toe ring.
✓ I have a tattoo. (SOON, SO SOON)	× I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with.	× I am a caffeine junkie.
× I am completely tree-huggy spiritual, and I'm not ashamed at all.	✓ If I knew I would get away with it, I would commit at least one murder.	✓ I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.
✓ I enjoy a nice glass of wine with dinner.	✓ I'm an artist. (i think so.)	× I am ambidextrous.
× I sleep with so many stuffed animals, I can hardly fit on my bed.	× If it weren't for having to see other people naked, I'd live in a nudist colony.	✓ I have terrible teeth. (just the back ones.)
✓ I hate my toes.	✓ I did this meme even though I wasn't tagged by the person who took it before me.	× I have more friends on the internet than in real life.
✓ I have lived in either three different states or countries. (states)	× I am extremely flexible.	× I love hugs more than kisses.
× I want to own my own business.	× I smoke.	✓ I spend way too much time on the computer than on anything else. (well, i would if i had one of my own)
✓ Nobody has ever said I'm normal.	✓ Sad movies, games, and the like can cause a trickle of tears every now and then.	× I am proficient in the use of many types of firearms and combat weapons.
✓ I like the way women look in stylized men's suits.	✓ I don't like it when people are unpleased or seem unpleased with me.	× I have been described as a dreamer or likely to have my head up in the clouds.
✓ I have played strip poker with someone else before.	✓ I have had emotional problems for which I have sought professional help.	✓ I believe in ghosts and the paranormal.
✓ I can't stand being alone.	✓ I have at least one obsession at any given time.	× I weigh myself, pee/poo, and then weigh myself again.
✓ I consistently spend way too much money on obsessions-of-the-moment.	× I'm a judgmental asshole.	× I'm a HUGE drama-queen.
× I have travelled on more than one continent.	✓ I sometimes wish my father would just disappear. (and then he did.)	× I need people to tell me I'm good at something in order to feel that I am.
× I am a Libertarian.	✓ I can speak more than one language. (latin counts, right?)	× I can fall asleep even if the whole room is as noisy as it can be.
✓ I would rather read than watch TV.	× I like reading fact more than fiction.	✓ I have pulled an all-nighter on an assignment I was given a month to do.
× I have no piercings.	× I have spent the night in a train station or other public place.	× I have been so upset over my physical gender that I cried.
× I once spent Christmas completely alone because there was a miscommunication on which parent was supposed to have me that night.	✓ There have been times when I have wondered "Why was I born?" and may/may not have cried over it.	× I like most animals better than most people.
× I own a collection of retro games consoles.	× The thought of physical exercise makes me shiver.	✓ I have hit someone with a dead fish. (nope, just a brick. but still.)
✓ I am compulsively honest. (RANDOMLY compulsively honest)	× I was born with a congenital birth defect that has never been repaired.	× I have danced topless in front of dozens of complete strangers.
× I have gone from wishing I was a girl to revelling in being a boy to feeling like a girl again in the span of five minutes, and not cared a whit for my actual sex.	× I am unashamedly bisexual, and have different motivations for my desires for different genders.	× I sometimes won't sleep a whole night or eat a whole day because I forget to.
✓ I find it impossible to get to sleep without some kind of music on. (i thought i was the only one!!)	✓ I dislike milk.	× I obsessively wash my hands.
✓ I always carry something significant around with me.	× Sometimes I'd rather wear a wig in day-to-day life than use my own hair.	✓ I've pushed myself to become more self-aware and thereby more aware of others.
✓ Even though I live on my own I still cry sometimes because I miss my mother.	× I hand wrote all the HTML tags in this document. (no, but i could.)	✓ I've liked something which a majority of people claimed was either bad or weird.
× I have been clinically dead for a brief period of time.	✓ Instead of feeling sympathy/empathy with people and their problems, I simply become annoyed. (sometimes. when they bitch too much)	× I participate/have participated in auto drag races and won.
× I do not 'get' most comedy acts.	✓ I don't think strippers are money-greedy or slutty for dancing.	✓ I don't like to chew gum.
✓ I am obsessed with history/historical things and can't wait for someone to build a time machine so I can be the first to use it.	× I can never remember for the life of me where I parked the car.	✓ I had the TEEN ANGST thing going for at least 2-3 years.
✓ I wish people would be more empathic and honest with each other.	× I play Dungeons and Dragons weekly.	✓ I love to sing. (even though i'm only half-way decent)
✓ I want to live in my mother's basement when I grow up.	× I have a custom-built computer.	✓ I want to create a certain someone's babies, even though there's a 0% possiblity of ever achieving it.
× I would be in a relationship with one of my pets if they were human.	× I've gone skinny-dipping.	× I've performed in three plays.
× I enjoy burritos.	× I'm Irish and loving it.	× I have a thing for redheads.
× I am a twin!	× Most of the times, I'd rather do something intellectual instead of doing something generically 'fun'.	× Once I set out to finish something, I always stay at it until it is completed before I move on to something else.
✓ I wish there were a way to erase past mistakes.	× I sleep more than 12 hours a day.	✓ I wish I could be prouder of what I've accomplished, but it's never enough. (seriously)
✓ I need more time to myself.	× I wish I was more open-minded.	✓ I hope that I go really prematurely grey. (i LOVE grey hair! ... on young people)
✓ I download songs from the internet.	× I've just reenacted chapter 58 of Death Note with my best friend.	✓ I say random things to freak people out.
× I'm still a little mad about the ending of Death Note.	× I love playing Truth or Dare.	× I love listening to slow music, but I hate singing to it.
✓ Music helps me remember that I am not alone.	× Playing my favorite sport makes me temporarily forget my problems.	✓ I think this survey is particularly long.
× I prefer my LJ friends to my real-life ones.	× I can only hate someone that I love.	× I've ordered an extra two shots of espresso to an Americano at Starbucks.

(12)

2006-07-08T21:25:11Z

back to the boonies.

damn it.

(11)tired.

2006-07-08T19:44:58Z

back to the FUCKING boonies. probably today. maybe tomorrow. but i won't computer access for a while. GR. we tried TWICE to get tickets to PotC:Dead Man's Chest. sold out. fuckers. but i have LOTS of new music on my iPod.I LOVE RISE AGAINST. heh yeah, had to throw that in. um. what else. i'm vey tired because i haven't really slept in 2 days, so yeah; this entry will suck.

fuck it. more at some later date. i'm too tired.

AND! my wisdom teeth are coming in, and i'm too poor to do anything but let them.

and we'll have to wait another month on the house, but i should be in austin by ACL. YAY!! and they might do down to 925-950 on the rent because the the delay. here's hoping. and i might need to find new homes for my cats... :(

(10)

2006-07-07T03:57:34Z

WE FOUND A HOUSE IN AUSTIN. it's 975 a month, and with 4 people working (one of whom is a nuse) we can hack it. it's 2 story, mostly tile. oh i CANNOT wait to move. i want to start OVER. so yeah. it's close to where my ex-boyfriend travis (lives? used to live?), but that's cool. if i run into him, i really don't think it will phase me.

anyway. i want a freaking job. :D actually i want a paycheck, but i job will give me purpose.

BTW, i love target. i got an awesome purse, and a new outfit. yeah! and a new hoodie!!! finally.

and my comp is still fucked up. we might just have to get a new one. gr. so we're going back to the library as our internet acces. FUCK! i have that. i feel so exposed.

(9)

2006-06-26T21:52:07Z

my comp is seriously fucking up... and we just got it. so this may be the last post for a while... hopefully not

we'll see.

damn it!

(7)EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.. yeah.

2006-06-25T23:39:33Z

FUCKIN' A. i just ordered Rick off amazon.com.

I LOVE YOU AMAZON.COM!!!!

nerd moment.

P.S. i have jury duty tomorrow. 7:30 AM=not good.

verybad.notgood.

(6) *points to icon

2006-06-24T19:23:32Z

i LOVE this icon. i've been saying wal-mart was evil FOR YEARS.

(5) super long survey. 'cause i'm bored.

2006-06-24T19:18:22Z

200: My name is: Katrina

199: I was born on: May 9

198. I am a: girl.

197. My eye color is: brown

195. My shoe size is: 9 1/2- 10

194. My ring size actually: um.. i have to idea. 8 ish?

193. What is your Favorite Color?: blue.green.black.silver. SO MANY!

192. My height is: 5'5...damn it.

193. Im allergic to: nothing so far.

190. I live in: Austin, Tx!!

189. The last book I read: Night of the Wolf AWESOME series!

188. My bed time is: it changes drastically.

187. First Screen name? no idea. i've had kodora1316 since i was 16, and i'm 21 now. it's been too long!

186. Current Screen name?: kodora1316 or kodora13

179. Favorite Holiday? halloween!

178. My fav. store in the mall is: a bookstore or hot topic.

177. The last three cd's i have listened to are:
Green Day-Kerplunk!
Muse
They Might Be Giants

no idea what the names are. i have the songs in my iPod

176. Last song that made me cry: um... traveling soldier by bruce robinson.

172. My most treasured possession(s) is: uh... i'm not going into it, but most of mine are gone. but i'll tell you what was... my teddy bear that i got the day i turned two.

170. What did you do last night: played around online (FAST INTERENT!!!)

167. My skin's reaction to the sun is (tan/burn): tan. i hardly ever burn

===============================
:::::I Do (YES)/Do Not (NO) Believe In:::::
===============================

143. Santa: No

142. Love at First Sight: No...

141. Luck: Yes

140. Fate: Yes

139. God: not really

138. Aliens: Yes

137. Heaven: kind of

136. Hell: kind of

135. Ghosts: Yes

134. Horoscopes: ...if they're done right

133. Soul mates: possible, but not probable

====================
:::::Which is Better?:::::
====================

129. Hugs or Kisses: Depends on who they are coming
from.

128. Drunk or High: drunk, i guess. i prefer not to get either... i'be been through that stage.

127. Phone or online: online

126. Red heads or Brown hair: i have brown hair naturally, but i'm always dyeing it auburn... so, both?

125. Blondes or Brunettes: Brunette!

124. lamb and tuna or peanut butter and jelly: pb and j... (lamb and.... tune EW)

123. pool or darts: neiter

122. sci-fi or horror: Both

121: boys or girls: Boys :)

120. Night or Day: night.

119. Oranges or Apples: oranges! my favorite fruit!

118. Curly or Straight hair: wavy.

==========================
:::::What comes to your head ?:::::
==========================

117. Scary: Movies

115. Backstabber: ?

113: Parents: i miss my dad and love my mom

110. School: i miss it. it was a BLAST for me!

=================
:::::Last time?::::::::
=================

103. Missed someone: um... dunno.

102. Hugged someone: Today

101. Seen someone u haven't seen in a while: today! mi madre

=================
::::MISC.::::
==========

90. Who's the ditziest person you know? what happened to the numbers? and i gues my cousin Bree

89. Who makes you laugh the most: um. no one person really. it's hard to make me REALLY laugh...

87. One thing I'm mad about right now: um. no money.

83. The last movie I saw in the theater was: Xmen3!!! going to see it again in a couple of days.

82. The thing I don't understand is: men.

79. The one thing I love about the opposite sex: their bodies. :)

78. This summer: will be HOT. damn texas weather

77. Next year will be: better. it MUST

76. Something I will really miss when I leave home is: mi madre

75. The thing that I'm looking forward to the most in
my future life: being on my own.

=======================
::::::what are you doing?:::::::
========================

71. tomorrow: going back to the land technology forgot. GR.

72. Today: tired but happy and content.

71. This Summer: uh. wil be hot.

70. Next month: is my gma's birthday

====================
:::MISC:::::(CONTINUED)
====================

64. The person I have been good friends with the
longest: Geoffrey

62. The person(s) who knows the most about me is: my mom?

61. The person that can read me the best is: i have no idea.

60. The most difficult thing to do is: pretend to be like everybody else

59. I have gotten a speeding ticket: Never

58. I have the following siblings: Deva, Dakota

56. My zodiac sign is: Taurus!

54. Who do you feel most comfortable with? My mom

53. The one person who can't hide things from me: i have no idea. i respect people's privacy... weird i know

51. Right now I am talking to: i just talked to my mom

47. I have a pet(s): a black cat Atra, and a tabby Alia

46. I hope: i get to BE something.

45. The worst sound in the world: uh. babies screaming. always makes me want to help the baby.

44. The person that made me cry the most is: travis.

33. My favorite brand of clothing is: anything that fits, i'm not picky in the least

32 . My favorite sport is: hockey! or soccer/football (depending on where you're from)

31. Last time I cried: a week ago?

28. The church I attend: never go.

27. Last person I got mad at: my gma

26. My worst experience I've ever had was: ...too many. and besides, this entry is public and i hate when people don't believe me. i'm NOT a liar.

22. The all-time best movie is: dude. i love movies. i cannot pick the "best"

21. The all-time best thing in the world is: uh... concerts? i dunno, there's so much fun to be had in life

20. So, about them Canadians: they exist.

19. The most annoying thing ever is: ...i'm neurotic about bad spelling and people who smack when they chew *shudders*

18. The most annoying person you know is: probably my little brother

17. I lose all respect for people who: hate people because of WHAT they are, not WHO they are

16. I hate: DISLIKE onions. peppers. people who are afraid to be themselves, so they jump on a bandwagon.

15. I Like: to meet new people, make new friends, by myself

14. My Favorite Day is: saturday.

13. My Favorite Month is: February. it's the coldest month in texas

12. My Favorite band is: green day... for now, lol

11. The worst pain: KIDNEY STONES. and heart break...

10. My favorite phrase: HOLY MOTHER OF GOD

9. My room: is insanely cluttered for the time being

8. My favorite actress/actor is: Aaron Stanford

7. your weakness: uh. pointy things?

6. who do you like: like or likelike? :)

5. cats?: i love black cats

4. What turns me on: i dunno. i'm attracted to very different types.

3. Who broke your heart: travis...

2. I filled out 200 questions because: i have time to kill online

1. What do you hate most about yourself: please DO NOT get me started. i have really low self-esteem. :/

(4) amazon.com has tons of toys, and every ton weighs 2000 lbs.

2006-06-24T18:40:36Z

*MUAHAHAHAHHAHAH*

i love amazon.com.

i WILL have aaron's movies. i WILL.

and now i'm off to look for obscure books... YAY amazon.

(3) this layout SUCKS.

2006-06-24T16:54:01Z

i want a good Aaron Stanford/ Pyro layout. anybody know where i can get one?

i'll love you FOREVER.